sharing from my heart to yours
This is a new kind of post. A kind I wish I wasn't writing. I haven't updated this blog since November 16, 2013. If only I could go back to that date and relive the following 5 months again. Back then, I was busy with craft shows, Etsy orders, preparing for the holiday season, and just the craziness of life. If I had known how life would change in 2014, I would have done things differently. But I'm glad I didn't know. I probably couldn't have made it through. You see, this little boy, our Skyler Thomas, the one who made me 'Mommy', went to be with Jesus. And then, just exactly 6 weeks later, this little girl, Janae Hope, a sweet and precious blessing, was born. And this is my mixed-up life. The heartbreaking loss. The peace of Jesus. The ups and downs and pregnancy. The joy of new birth. A good day here, and bad day there. A constant missing piece, a comforting new addition. Part of you is gone, but a new part is here. We are trudging through this mixed-up life. One step at a time, moment by moment. We are missing all those little things, while we enjoy new little things. Some days it feels like we won't survive as we face the days ahead without our little boy. But we have been amazed as we have been so blessed during this time. Jesus has so carefully wrapped us in His loving arms. He has sent His people to love on us in the midst of it all. He knows just what we need, when to send it, who to send. We have felt the prayers of thousands around the world, the support has been overwhelming. Though we feel the pain, and see small glimpses of the reality of the pain of this life, we know that we WILL make it. Life never goes as planned, and we will all face pain on this earth. I thought my life was pretty good. I thought that most my plans and dreams were pretty much happening, and in a lot of ways, life couldn't be better. May 1st, 2014 came. This is the day that changed my life. It is the worst day of my life. The day my life got mixed-up. But I can still be thankful. I have a good God. He has proved His love. He has drawn my family close and showed us His power and grace. There IS hope! This life isn't forever, and some day, we will join Skyler in the presence of Jesus for Eternity!! Now I'm not going to make any promises about keeping up on this blog.
If you've been here from the beginning, you know how that can be. But just maybe, this will be a new kind of place. Not just for sharing projects, DIYs, and business updates, but also for sharing the heart. It might become a place for me to share memories of my sweet boy that I miss each and every day. Of stories of the blessings that are still here with me. A way to encourage others going through similar things. A way for others to encourage me on my tough days! It could be a place where you read about heartbreak and healing. About an experience that only Jesus can bring you through. Maybe it will make you cry, maybe it will make you laugh. OR maybe it will be a quiet place, like it typically has been for that last several years :) Again, I can't make any promises. I am only taking one day at a time, and praying for the Lord to lead in my life. May God bless you always! Thank you for your love
14 Comments
Jessica
7/6/2014 01:00:06 pm
O Sklyer we miss you!!:( Praying for strength and comfort for each day! Love and hugs to you Molly!
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Jessica
7/6/2014 01:00:49 pm
Skyler*
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7/6/2014 01:28:29 pm
No words can say what the heart feels. Life is just so hard and we can't plan anything beyond this moment. What we know and can hold on to is the promise of heaven and even that we see through a glass darkly. All my love and prayers, dear Molly, we grieve with you for the light gone out so quickly.
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Amy
7/6/2014 01:35:53 pm
This is a mixed up life! I think of you, Molly, and family often. Praying for those hard times that you can be comforted in knowing Gods way is the best way. Thanks for posting this. You are a wonderful mom. God knew exactly who to give Skyler to for those five years.
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Priscilla Mills
7/6/2014 03:06:20 pm
Dear Molly- you and I have never met, but you probably know that I am Jethro's cousin. I just want you and Jethro, your children, uncle Paul and Aunt Esther to know that we still pray for u all! I feel like Skyler and our baby Nathan have a special connection.. Seeing as skyler entered eternity the same day Nathan entered this world! From what I've heard of Skyler, he was a special boy.. So special that Jesus took him to be with him at such a young age! May our Heavenly Father continue to give you the comfort and strength u need.. Congrats on your new beautiful baby girl! May Jesus lead and guide her always. With much love and Gods peace, Priscilla w Abe and family
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Hannah
7/6/2014 03:12:35 pm
Thank you for sharing your beautiful heart, Molly Joy.
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Liv Wilson
7/6/2014 04:26:42 pm
As I'm reading this I'm trying to imagine how it feels, and my heart just aches. I know its not even close to how much your heart aches, and that fact just makes me cry. Thinking about you often. Hugs and prayers for you all.
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Sarah K
7/6/2014 05:27:43 pm
Thinking of you and sighing prayers to God...((hugs))
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Joy
7/7/2014 06:56:47 am
Thank you for sharing, Molly! I pray this blog will be a help to heal your aching hearts. We continue to pray for you all and plan to make a visit before too long:-)
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Abby Spaulding
7/7/2014 10:18:14 am
Thanks for posting. You're in our thoughts and prayers. With lots of Love and God's Peace to you and yours, Abby with Bud and Family
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Carolyn
7/7/2014 03:17:15 pm
Dear Molly,
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Janine
7/8/2014 02:58:58 pm
Blessings to you, dear friend! Writing can be so helpful and healing, both for the writer, and the reader. It seems to bring our hearts closer as we travel this earth, but sharing that longing for heaven. May we all continue to live day by day and cherish the small things. Love you!
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Alicia M.
7/20/2014 11:38:56 am
Molly,
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Rachel
7/22/2014 07:07:38 am
Love you Molly and you know I am praying! I can't imagine your loss and pain nor do I want too:( praying God will continue to strengthen you all n hold you near and dear to Him!! Many hugs n lotsa love!!! Rach
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