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Summertime Rays of Sunshine

9/16/2014

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I started to realize that the tone of this blog was feeling a bit discouraging.
Ok, maybe not totally, because I realize it has been a place for me
(and maybe others) to be ENcouraged.
But I want you guys to understand that my life isn’t
completely consumed with loss.
Yes, it’s been a tough summer.
But I have been so blessed in ways that others have not, so I am thankful.
I have appreciated using this blog to share my feelings, and the journey through grief (and still will). But there's more to my life to share.

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Not the best picture, but I'll take what I can get!
The little people in my life couldn’t get much sweeter!
They’ve had some challenges adjusting, especially Rystin.
I could share some heartbreaking stories of some
of the things he has gone through.
Maybe someday I will. But not now.

Right now, let’s focus on the smiles and laughter, the happiness and joy.

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Soon after Skyler died. Still joyful.
Kids are amazing when it comes to change and acceptance.
They are told something, they take it as truth, and keep on living.
If only we could truly have the ‘faith of a child’ in all circumstances of life!

It has been so neat watching the way
Rystin and Vayah have bonded this summer.
Rystin has been forced to find a new best friend,
and Vayah is just getting old enough to fit the bill.
They know how to fight like cats and dogs,
but then there are the times that they just connect.
Skyler and Rystin fought some, but overall, there wasn’t a lot of drama.

2 year old girls? Yup.  There’s drama!
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It hurts me deep to know that my little boy doesn’t have a big brother to wrestle with, to do boy stuff with, and to look after him anymore. 
They had such different personalities, but were together all the time. 
It has been interesting to see Rystin stepping into the ‘biggest brother shoes’. 
Literally.

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Rystin jumping off the same dock, wearing the same trunks, and posing almost exactly the same as his older brother did last summer.
His first choice for footwear has been Skyler’s shoes. 
He goes for Skyer’s basket before his own a lot of the time.
They’re floppy and clumsy, but he knows what he wants.
He’s thrilled to be able to use his big brothers stuff,
and has commented about how he can have them now. 
Not in a way that he got a cool present,
but in the ‘I want to be like him’ kind of way.

Anyways… we weren’t going there.  ;)
Smiles…joy…happiness.

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Yup.  This little girl has brought us a lot of that!
She’s been a bit more of a needy baby at times,
but is getting better as she grows.
She sleeps amazingly (typically 9-10 hours straight!!),
so that has been such a blessing!
We have realized how important sleep is in all of our lives right now.
The struggles are so much harder when we’ve been lacking in that essential.

It has been so hard to understand how life can just keep going.
We lost our firstborn son, one of the brightest rays of sunshine I know.
And yet, our day to day lives don’t look that different.
We get up and greet the day, doing all of the same things we did before.
The empty spot at the table is becoming ‘normal’.  The days filled with sorrow are fewer.
Don’t get me wrong, there’s still a hole, we still hurt, we still cry.
But when I look at our life overall, we’re happy!
We are able to keep living, keep doing the things we need to do.
Things we enjoy still bring us good feelings.
We can still run and play, laugh and tease, rest and relax,
pray and praise, work and live.
I never thought I’d be able to do those things the same way again.
It’s different.
But we’re still living.
Living in a more normal way than I thought possible.

So for those of you who don’t know my family well, let me introduce us.
These are the rays of sunshine that have kept us going.
These little people are the light in our dark days.

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Rystin:
My sweet little boy. 
The boy who is stepping up to take on the ‘oldest child’ role.
The boy who loves to laugh and tease.
The one who has quiet moments and tears,
and feels things most people ten times his age have never felt.
His white, curly blond hair and sparkling blue eyes makes everyone smile.
He is energetic and loves to be on the go.
He's patient and detailed, he'll work on things until he can figure them out.

I’m secretly excited about his little freckles that are starting to show up.
I love this boy like crazy!


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Vayah:
My fiery little girl.
The girl I never realized how much I wanted until
she was in my arms for the first time.
The girl who turned our world around and keeps us on our toes.
The one who can brighten a room with her smile,
and make everyone laugh at her crazy antics.
Her dramatic two year old ways are all over the place!
She is independent, but loves to snuggle.
She’s determined, but oh so sweet.
She remembers her biggest brother,
but is young enough not to show a lot of response.
It’s been so fun to watch her grow and learn, and I love to imagine all the things we’ll do together.
I love this girl like crazy!


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My baby girl.
The girl who brought us hope in the midst of heartache.
The girl who has kept me going,
needing a mommy who needs her to hold and snuggle.
The one who can melt your heart with one little coo.
Her jabbering and smiles make the dark days brighter.
She loves to tuck her face in my neck and sleep,
breathing warm little sighs in to my ear.
She’s active and alert, always checking out the world
like she’s ready to jump right in.
We have needed this girl so much, and have been so blessed by her joining our family during our deepest hurt. 
It is so neat to think of my girls being sisters and friends.
I love this girl like crazy!

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Seeing these rays of sunshine, it’s not so hard to see why we can keep going.
God has taken one of them home, and the world got a little dimmer.
But He has blessed us with three other little joys,
who need our love and attention.
This earth may never be as bright as it was, but Heaven got that much brighter!
Our mission here is that much clearer.
Our desire for our final Home that much stronger.
One day, our sunshine will be full again, under the light of the true Son!
We can keep going, because He has blessed us.
We’ll carry on as He carries us.

I have so many more thoughts to share about our story,
but I wanted to show you what brightened our summer.

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10 Comments
Ashley
9/16/2014 01:54:40 am

I love this, Molly! Thanks for sharing. Praying still.

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Amy Storm
9/16/2014 02:31:34 am

You write so beautifully...Heaven! What a day that will be! Our thoughts and prayers continue to be with you and your family. Love and hugs ,
Amy

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Tricia Matson
9/16/2014 02:46:10 am

Continued prayers for you Molly and Jethro and family. God is faithful, and I can see him through your writing!

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Anna Aho
9/16/2014 04:10:14 am

So beautiful to see how faithful our God is, and how He continues to carry you, and give you new joys!

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Laura
9/16/2014 04:28:06 am

You write so beautifully ! Thanks for sharing your journey . I will continue ro lift you in prayer !

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Auntie Kris
9/16/2014 05:28:09 am

I have 'one' dear niece. May God continue to bless and provide for you. May he continue to give you the strength for each new day. Love and prayers, Auntie Kris

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Hazel
9/16/2014 07:20:57 am

Beautifully written - Love and prayers

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clarissa west link
9/17/2014 05:11:03 am

Lovely, bittersweet. Praying for you all!

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Carol
9/18/2014 07:40:56 pm

It is so good to see how God has kept you all in His loving care. He does keep His promises! We think of you often, and you are still in our prayers!

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Hannah
9/29/2014 03:15:08 pm

Because of your love for Christ, your writing will never sound discouraging. Even in the grief & the sadness, there is still a sense of peace that comes through your words. You are finding joy in the midst of the sorrow - all glory to God.So thankful & grateful for His faithfulness, especially towards your hurting hearts. Love you guys, so very much.

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      I am a mommy who enjoys creating things that make other mommies' lives a little easier! I have four darling little blessings (including one in Heaven),
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