I have to share this story with you from a few weeks ago.
It so perfectly reminded me that He cares and is with us ALWAYS!
It was a Sunday afternoon and Jethro had the evening off from doing chores at the farm. We all were tired after a crazy weekend and decided to just spend the afternoon resting. We put the kids down for naps (which didn't last long). I laid down on Rystin's bed (which used to be shared by Skyler), intending to take a nap. Instead, my thoughts turned to the boy who, not long ago...but forever ago, slept in the same place where I laid.
The rest of the day was very difficult, both in that, and other things.
I pleaded with God to show Skyler to me again.
I just needed a peek, or a sign, or a memory.
During the night, I woke up to the sweetest feeling.
God had answered my prayers with an amazing dream!
Our family was together again.
Skyler was playing outside with Rystin and I called for them to come inside because we were packing to go on a trip together.
Skyler was bigger.
About the size of a 6.5 year old.
The details are were fuzzy, but I'm sure I got to talk with him and hug him.
I had always feared that if I had a dream like that, it would be crushing to wake up and have to realize again that he was gone.
But God had even taken care of that.
Even in my dream, I knew that Skyler was gone.
I knew it was just a brief glimpse of him.
I tried to figure out how old he was,
and knew it had been a long time since I had seen him last.
I woke up filled with peace.
I felt like I had been given the chance to visit my Skyler again!
God is SO good to remind me that even still, He knows my pain and gives us just what we need. He is always faithful!
It was almost two years ago (a few months before he went Home),
when we spent some time with my family in OR.
We did some hiking up in the hills and I got a few pictures.
I think he was wearing his Papa's hat over his hood, thinking he was pretty cool!
He was looking out at the world below.
So close to Heaven, in ways we never knew.
The God of the mountain is STILL God in the valley!
I updated my profile picture on FB from one of my oldest three,
to this one of my youngest three.
It took a long time to be able to take the first one down, and I still had to include the top picture of Skyler in my cover photo.
It's tough not having a picture of all my kids together.
But so comforting to know that my biggest boy is waiting for us at Home!
We will see him again someday...
and I'm hoping for more sweet dreams between now and then!